This is pretty much the best I can come up with the day before my four day final exam schedule starts (yes, I am still in school on June 15th…a crime I tell you). Since it dawned on me fairly recently that I suck at lots of things that are kind of relevant to my blog postings (who am I kidding, nothing is ever relevant on here), I decided to enlighten you with stuff about how much I suck.
For starters, this blog. So I used to be like scarily awesome at keeping up with it. When I first made it, I was all into it like OH I’M GOING TO WRITE EVERY DAY but then I realized that I was totally being unrealistic as usual and that I’d be lucky if I kept up with it once a week because I didn’t want to write those short little crap posts that get people excited and then it’s like…two sentences long. I’ve been making excuses on why I don’t keep up with my blog (too much work, no inspiration, no time) but it’s pretty much laziness. That probably explains the complete lack of views I’ve gotten this past week…I’ve had a post up since June 3rd. My blogging is probably going to get even more lazy in the summer but I’ll try my best to keep it updated.
I’m not clever. I don’t play my cards well. For example, I have my first final tomorrow (History) and I have to ace it in order to maintain an A- average for the year. So this weekend I basically killed myself studying for it and I walk into school and one of my friends was saying how it was going to be a piece of cake and he would totally wing it and I called him crazy. Now today, she gives us a review packet and says if you know this, you’ll be good for the final. THE REVIEW PACKET IS SO. EASY. You’re telling me that I did ALL this work when I basically knew everything without even studying. Die. And then my friend goes, “Good thing I didn’t study.” And if I hadn’t studied, I would’ve been screwed studying all tonight.
I’m also losing my skill in Scramble 2. If you don’t know what Scramble 2 is, you haven’t lived. It’s pretty much the most addictive word game in the entire world (i.e. electronic Boggle but Scramble 2 sounds way more awesome). It’s a free app on my iPod touch and all my friends in Study Hall are obsessed. You have to find as many words as you can in a 3-minute time limit and whoever gets the most amount of points wins (longer words=longer points). Let me just say that I pretty much crush anyone who tries to play me (say, like, a 60 point win). But, today, I GOT BEATEN. It was crushing. I was slightly off my game and there weren’t that many available points, and my friend beat me by 10 and called it “owning me” and really enjoyed rubbing it in my face the rest of the day (but it was all cancelled out because I beat him by 60 on the rematch). But it really hurt my ego and I’m afraid that one day I’ll wake up and my intense skill will just slip through my fingers and I’ll be getting beaten left and right. Since I’m really proud of this skill and it’s like my only one, I’m really counting on it and I might die if I lose it.
I hate people but I can’t ignore them. This is actually a disease. Like, someone will decide to stalk me and text 48 times a day and I will respond back EVERY TIME. Even if they are REALLY annoying, I can’t help it. I just feel bad and also it really bothers me when I KNOW I have an unanswered text in my inbox. I don’t like starting or ending text conversations unless there’s a legit reason. But anyway, so, I’ll complain to my friends about how this guy is using me or someone won’t stop texting me and they’ll say things like, “Ignore him” or “Stop doing stuff for him” and it’s really not that simple! I’m pretty tough, but I’m also really soft and feel bad about stuff a lot. I don’t feel bad when someone’s being a jerk and they know it; it’s only if they’re totally naive and innocent and I’m just like HOLY EFF YOU ARE SO ANNOYING but they’re just so nice and ANNOYING and they have no idea…then I feel bad, because it’s not their fault, ya know?
Anyway, I’ve been feeling like I’ve been sucking at a lot of things lately. So maybe if I get A’s on my exams, I will feel better (YES I AM A NERD DEAL WITH IT). And I will also try to be more updatey if time permits.
